Not Necessarily

So, it was Valentine's Day yesterday. At 21, I never experienced being on a romantic date on a V-day. I only got flowers once when I was in High School. Despite this, I don't want to be sour-graping to people who are extremely happy on that day. I may not be in a romantic relationship now, but I ain't bitter. And this statement is genuine as it can be.

I wish I was able to enjoy yesterday the way others did. I was supposed to go with my family on a newly-opened bar in town but I was sick so I had to spend the night resting. 

I am single but I am not loveless. Being single and being loveless can both go along together, depending on how you perceive everything around you. In my case, I am single but not loveless. Yes, honestly. No this is not me doing some defense mechanism here. You may be thinking of reaction formation or rationalization but, no. In my heart, I truly believe in love. Always have, always will.

Love is indeed everywhere and it is definitely NOT a cliché. It really isn't. This love emanates from Someone Divine up there. Even from the very moment we wake up everyday, God shows us His love by giving us another day, the opportunity to be with your loved ones, or even the chance to enjoy life the way it is. 

I see love seeing my mom preparing to go to school, to teach not just to earn a living but because of love for teaching itself. I see love whenever my dog waves her tail in the sight of me. I see love when I see my sister doing her homework, perhaps, not just to comply but for the love of learning. 

See? Love is indeed everywhere. Even in the simplest things around us, it is always there. You just have to recognize and appreciate it. Do you have to be in a relationship to feel love? Not necessarily...

xoxo,
Alchang :*

just the first of many more :))))))))

Last January 30, we finally got the results of the Licensure Exam! All the 43 people in the first batch of the new BSN curriculum of my school PASSED. Yehesssss! We might have just assumed it coming even during our student days, but now, the feeling of the reality happening right in front of your face is just surreal. I AM SOOOOO HAAAAPPPY!!! I barely can't contain it in words!!!

This is just indeed of the many more posts to come. Thank You Lord for this victory! You never fail to answer our prayers Use our licenses for Your greater glory! :)

I love you guys! Always have, always will :*

Twenty One and Thankful :)

Once, I was just a kid sneaking from my parents to get away and play with my friends. Looking back, I never envisioned myself being at this point in my life now. Maybe I was just too busy with my childhood that I just don't have the time to think of it. When I was a lot younger, I look up to those people who age like me now. I don't know. Maybe they were just so mature already that time, and uhm... responsible as well. But now, I reached their age before, why don't I feel as mature and responsible as them? Hahaha! Certainly, my heart can prove it: AGE ARE JUST NUMBERS.

THANK YOU is all I can say for 21 years of existence, experiences, and lessons. Thank You to my God, my Refuge and the Perfect Being. I wouldn't be here without You along those 21 years.

Thank You also for the FB and Twitter posts whether you remembered it or you just saw a notification in Facebook. Hehe. I love you guys! 

Thank you also for the SMS people. Some people did sent me a text message but the one I had from Ascencion (whom I call Sissie) touched me most. Here it is:

What we have once enjoyed we can never lose. All that we love deeply becomes a part of us.

-Helen Keller

To one of the few people I deeply love, Happy Birthday Titipz! :))We may not be together to celebrate your day but I sincerely hope that that my prayers and wishes of happiness, good health, good luck, love life and successful career will reach you and be granted to you. May God continue to bless you and guide through the days and may the good you bring to others be repaid to you a seventh fold. Continue to be jolly, lovable and beautiful. Love yah! Mwuahugs!

This message almost made me cry. I know in my heart that no matter how long we won't be able to see each other, nothing will change of how we are. She's indeed one of this earth's most admirable yet so humble people. :)))))

Of course, the great, great THANK YOU to my parents for without them, I wouldn't be here today. I believe, they've had a good job in nurturing me and I should claim it. I've had a lot of flaws but they just loved me exceptionally still. 

ALL THE BEST FOR GOD'S GREATER GLORY! :)))

Much love,

Alchang (who is now a year older)

Epikia: Exception to the Rule

Whether you admit or not, you have set some standards within yourself with a lot of things. Or at least call them "parameters" or "preferences" if you ain't comfortable with it. May it be with the kind of food you eat, the kind of clothes you wear, the way you get things done or most, with the kind of ideal man or woman you want to be with.

Personally, I've always believed I would settle for my picture of my ideal man: long-legged, smart, artistic and God-fearing. That I would neeeveeerrr just at the least thing have a crush on anyone that doesn't fit on any of the four. And yes, you just knew, I FOUND MYSELF WRONG.

I could not at least specifically name the deviations from those so-called "parameters" but admit it, you had been on my shoes too. Just so you know, he still fits in portions of those and yet, he also falls in the very characteristic I don't want in a man. Mouth zipped. I'd leave it there. The rest is for you to know. Hahaha!

And BTW, of how I knew about the word EPIKIA is because of the person this post's all about. Bastaaaa! :)) And even with my awe for this person, still the innate "Dalagang Pilipina" blood overwhelms me a lot whenever those simple "kilig opportunities" set in.    (Me lifting my own seat here) Waaaaaahhhhh!!! Booo! Yeah, I admit. I was like some loser-high-school-girl trying so hard na ipakitang hindi  kinikilig. Urrrrggghhh! I am being too talkative. Sssshhh. Hahaha. Anyway, if you knew me personally, you don't have to read in between the lines. You knew all along about what and who's this post all about just reading the very title.

One fine realization: YOU CANNOT EXPECT ALL THINGS TO HAPPEN THE WAY YOU WANT IT SHOULD BE. Behind anything is a purpose. You just have to accept it the way they are.

Disclaimer: HINDI AKO HOPIA! HAHAHA

Breaking the ice,

Alchang :>

His Will be Done :>

That feeling when you are likely to have a Myocardial Infarction and there's like a sign of impending doom. I can't seem to breathe easy even with just the thought of it. My mind is preoccupied with "what if's" and "how's".

I can't contain in words how anxious I am now after December 16 and 17 (The Big Days). It's really like there are butterflies in my stomach, literally. Awooooh!!! I wanna scream my heart out!!! I am partly relieved that it was over BUT the uneasiest time is this: waiting. Other courses would get their results for 5 days or most a week but for us, you would have to wait for 45 days. 45 LONG DAYS. How is it? Of course, this country is like a "mass manufacturer" of nurses. Well, this like's prolonging your agony. Naaaaaahhhh!!!

One thing for sure, it wasn't an easy exam. For all the past board exams I have read made by the outgoing Board of Nursing, I would say without biases and in my humblest assessment, it was the hardest they've made. It was harder than how I thought it was. Surely, the current BON made history as how they said it. It may be not the easiest exam ever but I knew all along God has always been guiding my rationalizations for every question, and even as I shade my answer sheet with my pencil. I just have to say, Thank You Lord for guiding me all the way. You were and will always be my refuge and strength.  

No matter what the outcome may be, I think I am ready to embrace it, may it be good or not so good. Truly, everything happens in His own reasons. I completely entrusted everything to His grace and will.

On the other hand, I cannot spend the"waiting days" in vain. Come on, it's Christmas season. I wanna jump off the cliff, bang my head on the walls, try the zipline and tie it on my neck while I head towards the other end, et cetera. Just the common things, you know. HAHAHA! I kid. Of course, I would like to spend it in a worthwhile way, feeling this season in a very special way. And sure, I will.

And BTW, can I just say sorry for like forever's absence? You know, I am just quite busy being the "praning" reviewee girl for the mean time. Seeeezzz. Undoubtedly, I missed it posting here.

God bless you there, sweetie! :*

Let me end this with a portrait of people I love and miss a lot:

The new breed of nurses, as how we tag ourselves. Haha. Find my forehead there!

Always,

Alchang :)

THANK YOU!

So many things to say but I just have these two genuine words in my heart now: THANK YOU! 

Thank you for my viewers (if there's any) since it's been a year since I started this blog for me to be able to join Bianca Gonzalez' blog anniversary contest. Here I am now, doing my best to update it. HAHA! Though I don't have a parade of readers, I am still greatly thankful for those few people who care to drop by in this avenue for thought expression. I am looking forward to make meaningful posts. I am not a "blogger" in the word's essence. It would to take a lot. And I don't think I have to be. I write to express and not to impress. From the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU! :)))

I can keep this blog updated maybe sooner when I get to finish in Review School. Someday, this will have a more meaningful purpose. I claim it and so shall it be. :*

Much love and care,

Alchang :*

HELLO THERE!

So many things to say but I don't have a luxury of time. Just so you know, I miss it so much here. Lately, I am just preoccupied with the Special Preboards and now upcoming is the Simulation Preboards. Breathe in. Breathe out.**Crossed-fingers**

Will update this blog real sooooooooooooon. :))))

xoxo,
Alchang :*